In Memory-Two Years

I needed to take a minute to post this one, for me.

It's been two years now since my Gpa Shields passed away. I won't bore you by repeating stories or pictures I've put up here before. If you really want to see, you can revisit old posts such as Mixed Blessings

Sometimes it feels like its been ages, other times it's impossible to believe that it's been so long. I go to Gma's house several times a day, and yet there are still times I find myself expecting to see him there, expecting to hear his laugh, and feel his strength. I wish I could hear more of his counsel, wish I could see him hold JJ and tease Steven, the way I know he would have before his health was so bad. In fact, I think he and Steven are a lot alike, they would have been really good friends I'm sure. I look forward to seeing the bond between them in the next life.

As much as I miss him, and wish he was here, I'm still happy he's free not only of the physical pain of mortality, but the emotional as well. I would've hated to see him have to witness Gma's chemo from this side of the veil. He approached every problem, every trial with laughter, but he would have had a hard time laughing through this one.

This song has been stuck in my head lately and seems quite fitting.

Sometimes a song can touch a nerve
That takes me back to you
When I pick up my old guitar
And I play your favorite tune
Every now and then, some little thing
I've buried comes bubblin' up
And once in a while, you feel close enough to touch

I miss you a little since you've been gone
A few little memories keep hangin' on
I miss you a little, I guess you could say
A little too much, a little too often
A little more every day

When I go by our old house
I pretend that you're still there
Waitin' for me on the porch
But there's just an empty chair
Wish I could see you just one more time
Before I drive away
So I could stop and go inside, and say

I miss you a little since you've been gone
A few little memories keep hangin' on
I miss you a little, I guess you could say
A little too much, a little too often
A little more every day
A little too much, a little too often
A little more every day